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Tuesday, May 22, 2012
A Mistake: Poem Explanation
Just Out of Reach
Five years next November.
Can't repeat
the past?
Why of course you can!
I'm going to fix everything
just the way it was before.
He looked around wildly,
as if the past were lurking
in the shadow,
just out of reach of his hand.
Oh, you want too much!
I can't help what's
past.
She vanished into her rich house,
into her rich, full life,
leavving Gatby--
nothing
just out of reach of his hand.
(87), (110), (132), (149)
Monday, May 7, 2012
Just Another Teenager
How did the word teenager have such a negative connotation? Writer Debra Bradley Ruder says, "teens are easily influenced by their environment and more prone to impulive behavior?" Is it true? Are teenager just unwired, careless beings? Physician at Harvard Medical School Frances E. Jensen agrees saying, "[Teens] are people with very sharp brains, but they’re not quite sure what to do with them.”
What shaped me to be the teenager I am as I stand before the world today?
Money is the tour guide that will lead you through life if you wish. It is hard to follow dreams without thinkning of a price. This is true even more so in my case because I have always wanted to be a teacher. It was a career choice my parents treated as if it were a joke or an atrocity. My parenthe ts recommended other job choices to me, "Be a lawyer, you're so good with words." Or, "Pharmacy is so easy to do! Why don't you try to be a pharmicist?" They warned me, "You know, by the time you become a teacher, there will probably be no more jobs left for you." And they tried to persuade me, "You'll be so much happier if you have money!"
This is when I found out, career paths have price tags on them. Everything does.
I began convincing myself that maybe my life would be easier if I earned more money. Maybe money was better than a passion for my job. Therefore, I took a Medical Technology class even though I did not care for the medical field. I convinced myself, maybe I would be lifeless, upset forever. But maybe not. I might be satisfied with my life as a pharmicist. It was going to be an easy life filled with things I wanted. It would be better than a life filled with wanting. I realized, yes, love, family, happiness is important, but money is success, and success without money is not recognized.
American essayist, poet, and transcendentalist, Ralph Waldo Emerson writes in his essay "Self-Reliance", "A man is to carry himself in the presence of all opposition." I do not think I can agree with Emerson's idea because I believe he is being too idealistic, and in some aspects, impractical. Of course, many people will rebel against authority figures. Students and teenagers may resist against teachers and parents, but not everyone can stand up for their beliefs. The people that stand up from their beliefs are brave. What are the people who are not brave supposed to do? I am not brave; I lack courage. I do not have the courage to know what I am thinking is always "right" or "good" enough to fight for. I do not have the assurance.
But ever since I was younger, I was taught to stick up for what I believe in. I should not have to be afraid. I was not to be a part of the mass, I was to be an individual for "right" or "wrong". As writer and professor at Purdue University Louis Rene Beres says, "submission to multitudes has become our state religion."I agree with Beres. I am a conformer, a part of the mass. I dislike standing out and being different, an individual. I am not interested in sharing my thoughts and feelings unless called upon to: I am not brave enough. ravery is one intangible thing that is missing from my daily life. I am not brave. I think brave people have a wider range of experience than me. For example, brave people are quick to accept challenges; they do not care if they fail or succeed. Sadly, a big part of me does not only do a strenuous activity unless it is required of me because I am afraid of what people will think of me if I fail or succeed. Similarly, brave people will share their opinions without being concerned about what people will think of what they say. Instead, brave people will only be concerned with sharing their idea. I, on the other hand, will not share my opinions unless necessary. And once I do share my opinions, in my head, I am always secretly analyzing what people think of what I just said. Of course my fears and some habits have gotten better with time—especially since grades are also based on participation—but I still do not think I will ever be naturally brave. It’s difficult to be a part of the “mass” and have very little bravery in my life, but I’d rather be a coward than be an individual.
How am I supposed to "find myself", if I do not want to go back to my roots, the basics, nature? I am heavily influenced by technology to the point of addiction, to the point where I am never "alone." Emerson writes in his essay "Nature", "To go into solitude, a man needs to retire as much from his chamber as from society." It seems people of the twenty-first century then, are never alone.A large majority of our society is surrounded by electronics all day. Even if the electronics are not in use, the wavelengths the devices will emit, interrupt our natural wavelengths. There are more and more medical studies saying people should unplug their electronic devices from outlets when we want to get a true good night's rest. Also, I feel I am never alone thanks to the several social networking websites. Even though I am in solitude physically, I can be having a conversation with a friend on Facebook, videochatting on Skype, or reading a celebrity's posts on Twitter. It is hard to be in true solitude when there are the many lures of the Internet.
I am just another person filled with opinions and ideas.
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
The Perfect Balance
Why do immigrants choose our nation as a safe haven? What is it about our country that makes it look so great in the eyes of outsiders?
You do not get to choose freedom; nobody does. Fate decides how much freedom you get. Where you are born decides how much freedom you get. What race you are decides how much freedom you get. Who you are born to decides how much freedom you get. Freedom is decided even before you are born. Freedom is everything; it decides how a life is to be lived. And so, fate is everything. A factor no one can control, decides life.
Freedom is hard to come by. Fate is cruel. Freedom is fated.
Or so it seems. Walter lives in a country where he is free to do almost anything he wants. Tarek, on the other hand, must live a restricted life, both in his home country and in America where he is considered an illegal. Tarek lives a happier, freer life. He forgets the fear and dangers in his life. He lives a life filled with love and happiness. He lives “doing things” in a country where he does not even belong. What is so different about Walter and Tarek? Appreciation.
How many times in one day do we, free Americans, appreciate the rights that are handed to us on a silver platter? I know for a fact, I never stop to give thanks to the many material items I own, just because I was born in this country. I never thank God for letting me be born in a place that does not openly discriminate against race, sex, and religion. Why? Because I have never been without luxuries. I have never starved, been dying of thirst, worn old, unwashed clothes, only owned one pair of shoes, not had a place to sleep at night, not had a roof over my head, and therefore I have never felt the need to appreciate.
You never know what you have until it’s gone. But how can you appreciate something if you’ve never even had it to begin with? How do illegals appreciate America when it is not their country?
Appreciation is a wonderful thing: It makes what is excellent in others belong to us as well.
-Voltaire
Freedom is fated, but how one lives their life is up to the individual. Freedom is not a completely limiting force; it is difficult to control, but it is not an extreme that dictates exactly how lives are to be lived and how they will turn out. If we do not have it, it is simply an excuse, a set back, a factor to help people try harder, to find a perfect balance.